3.01.2007

Deep
The depths of the darkness
Night
I wait for the dawn
Trust
I walk through the shadows
Blindly
Following your footsteps
Steady
My hand is in Yours
You
Forever are with me
I know
I am never alone.
I reach to the top and gasp for air
To give me life from death
Alone I swim toward the surface
As I strain for my first breath.

I reach out toward the table
For the food that gives me life
Your words, the Bread of Heaven
Forever fleeing from my sight.

The one who drinks this water
Need never thirst again
So I come to You to quench my thirst
To drown away my sin.

Alone, the night is closing
Crushed down in darkest depths
I beg You to bring the morning
As I strain for each last breath.

A study in the art of heartbreak & the beauty of pain


.The utter desperate beauty of tears.

.The tragic art of heartbreak.

.The hopeless romance of pain.

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All those plans she chose to make
All the chances she chose to take
Had it planned out oh-so-right
All were ruined in just one night



She’s so angry she could weep
So she cries herself to sleep
She’s been let down once again
By another so called friend
It’s like her usual un-perfect world
Has caved the whole way in
Look at it any way you like
There ain’t no way it’ll turn out right

Some kids fall asleep with dreams so sweet
...
Others fall asleep with tears

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empty
broken
lost
afraid
a lonely soul makes it’s lonely way
searching
searching
ever searching
looking for truth
seeking for hope
scouring the world to find peace

one lone spirit in this big empty world
one soul crying in the night
one heart looking for the only way
a little girl searching for light

blackness that burns
surrounding
terror unknown
lies in wait
hidden, under the covers
she fears
in her eyes squeezed tightly
tears

she’s a tortured soul
she’s searching for peace
a chance to escape from the night
guide her
lead her
take her by the hand
show her she can trust you
let her know she can!
guide her
lead her
bring her some peace
she’s a little girl who’s scared
a little girl in the night
a tortured soul
searching for light.

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i’m in a deep darkness
and i’m dreaming of you
in my darkness i’m
waiting
hoping
praying
looking
for your light to shine through

my waking dreams
my heartsick tears
my loneliness grows
as the light disappears
your healing touch
your consoling eyes
out of reach of
my waking insomniant cries

as i lie alone
in this place of fears
i look to you
to dry my tears
your soothing touch
your comforting eyes
all out of reach of
my waking insomniant cries

sleepless
restless
comfortless
i look for your love
to free me from this:
my pain filled dream
my nightmare alive
in the wide awake terror
of my semi-conscious mind

because I spend my life to wait for you
with pain inside my soul
your existence is still too far away
from this midnight black as coal

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do you understand?


.The pain.


.The hopelessness.

.The reality.