4.03.2009

The differences between us.

Short-skirted, smiling, she could be cute.
I would have thought she was, until I knew about you.  


Pink waterbottle on the 4th desk in the 2nd row.

Eyelids.
Falling faster.  Dozing.  AWAKE.
   Black & yellowed pages
            blurring to a warm sloppy gray.  Words.
Mixing.
Unawares introducing a 
t o t a l  s k e p t i c i s m
into the most essential articles of natural and revealed
theology. What!
Modern Philosophy blurs
into dreams
...no decisive proofs can ever be produced
against this authority.
resting
THE WHOLE SYSTEM of a religion on a 
Point   . 
which from its very nature must 
forever be
uncertain? 

the nature of time defined

--Pale hand holding purple pen.
--Her voice is very constant.  Constantly loud.  
--my hand still reads vaguely: Call J. Allsup @ 1:35. in Blue Ink.  Check.  
--my fingernails need trimming, my lips need chapstick and I need to define what is going on in my mind because I want to know that I don't just want this to have a this I need to want this because I want THIS this not just anyone but exactly that one.  Exactly you.  And it's gotta be forever.  
--umpteen distinctions and not enough care taken.
--two hairties and a pink ribbon; left.  An old scar still healing; right.
--in 30 minutes I am going to be eating a dinosaur burger in the past.